I haven’t blogged in exactly a week. But in my defense, I’ve had an extremely difficult past week. For the second time in my short 18 years, I’ve endured a pretty painful break-up.
However, I refuse to let it get me down. I am strong enough to get through anything. I’d rather be happy and not waste my energy on being sad. I’d rather focus all my energy on my happiness.
I have so much to look forward to in my life, even just in the next 6 months I have so much to look forward to. Now, I’m able to spend my last months at home spending time with my family and my friends who I’m going to have to say goodbye to soon. Also, I’m finally going to have the opportunity to rack up more hours at work. And more hours at work means more money, which is great because I love saving money, not necessarily spending it.
I also have graduation to look forward to. It’s crazy how close graduation is. Just 3 months away. It’s funny because I can still remember my first day of high school. I even remember a friend (a sophomore at a different school) asking me how my first day of high school was and how excited I was to tell him all about my amazing day.
But maybe what I’m most excited about is having this time to focus on myself. After my last break up, I was able to get to know myself better and find what made me happy, and I really cherish those 10 months that I was single last year. I learned so much about myself because when I had been in that relationship, I didn’t focus on myself much and I really believe I lost a part of myself along the way. So being able to pick up the pieces and become a better person was an exciting opportunity.
Regardless, I know that I can get through anything with the help of God. I feel so truly blessed to know Christ. I never have to be scared or worry about the future because I know that God will carry me through any storm. In this time in my life, I don’t have to be strong by myself. That’s what I have Christ for, He will carry me and help me be strong. Times like these really make me wish that everyone had the opportunity to know Christ. Life is so much better with him.
So for now, I’m hurting. But luckily this time around I can see the light at the end of the tunnel. I have so much to look forward to in the next 4 years of my life and I know I have people in my life who will love me unconditionally until my next break up :)
I can do all things through Christ who Strengthens me Philippians 4:13