When 2015 began, I scribbled down a list of goals for the year in my favorite notebook (it has a quote from my favorite director, Alfred Hitchcock, on the front, which makes it pretty great) and I promised myself that I would work towards those goals this year. I can’t tell you exactly what those goals were because I’m currently working on locating this notebook…so exact goals TBA…
Regardless, I remember the general idea of these goals. One was to become more independent. I’ve always been a fairly independent person, but I used to care far too much about what others thought of me or obsess over pleasing others instead of myself. At this time last year, I was feeling slightly frustrated with myself and my dependence on others. While I strongly believe every person needs family and friends and basic human interaction in their lives in order to succeed and deal with their emotions properly, I didn’t like that much of what I did in my day-to-day life depended on others, and when they had different plans or were no longer a part of my life, I felt empty. So, I decided that 2015 was the year of “me”.
It began with doing things that made me happy, followed by living a more proactive lifestyle. Instead of on those nights where I had no plans and sitting around feeling lonely and bored, I would go out and make plans with friends. I decided to broaden my friend group and start spending time with people I wasn’t as close to. I decided to say “yes” more often than saying “no”. Another step in becoming more independent was becoming more accepting of myself. I’ve really learned to love who I am (flaws and all) and to be comfortable being alone. Not alone meaning being single or having no one around, but alone meaning spending time by myself sometimes. Sometimes I stayed in all night watching Netflix by myself and it didn’t bother me. Once I volunteered at a non-for-profit I had never been to by myself. Alone doesn’t have to mean lonely.
I also decided to focus more on being happy, and without a doubt this has been one of my happiest years! I once read that happiness is all in your head. Even when you don’t feel your happiest, if you act happy, eventually you will be. In my opinion, there’s no better feeling than being happy.
This year, I also reached out for some of my biggest dreams in college yet. I’ve been pleasantly surprised with how my 5 semesters in college so far have turned out. I’ve accomplished almost every goal and dream I have set for myself. It’s been a lot of work and dedication, and definitely a lot of time, but at the end of the day, without a doubt, I can say that I am proud of all I have accomplished this year.
So even though I can’t find this list of goals (I promise I will and update you all) I do believe that one-year-ago me would be pretty pleased with how things turned out.